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Friday, March 30, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

i went down earlier to the bus stop today!
because i was rather scared that i'll miss my bus
due to the fact that im walking slower now haha
and while walking into JJC
xinee was around 4 metres infront of me -_-'
that was when i realised that
im walking SO MUCH slower now
im walking ohso slowly oh my

jeslyn my classmate told me that
we needa sign up for some chinese IDP thing
its compulsory for those not taking chinese to take
that course is 84 bucks lah
basket! luckily i nv sign up for any idp yet
im not sure what i'll learn from the course
so i'll be attending that idp
while the others will have chinese lessons
not bad actually haha

i had 2.5 hours of break somewhere in between
and im so proud and happy with myself
because i wenta library with jeslyn
and completed my chem tutorial 2! (=
and i so love my chem tutor mr suren!
i like his teachings! =D
and he's so nice!
im so glad that im a chem rep
rather than a gp rep yucks
and i wrote another entry for the GP journal in library
i think im kinda like talking back to the gp tutor inside =X
but who cares? journal mah! nanny nanny poo poo! =P
and i asked for the blood donation form today!
im gonna donate blood!! SCREAMSSS!!!
im v v v vv scared actually!
and found out that if i donate
i'll be donating blood on my birthday -_-'
so for the sake of donating blood
i shall not eat my painkillers for the tail bone injury
i shall just bear with the pain haha
and i shall not drink any more coffee till after the donation (=

i had pc but i din go for pc haha
passed them my excuse chit and stood there looking at them
the girls were having a 2.4 trial run lor
so many guys were sitting down at the "bench"
so xinee & xiangfeng asked them to let me sit
since i was injured haha
in the end jinhao, my classmate for 1st intake
offered me a seat
but it was damn funny lah
its like he waved at me to ask me go sit
with a group of boys! so scary lah!
i din wan to sit but xinee & xf asked me go sit
so i made them to sit with me also haha
so they waited 4 my pc to end
which was at 430 lah! so late!
den we bussed down to fairfield together! =D

i missed fairfield ohsomuch lah!
and i saw so many of my class people!
it's as if like we got telepathy!
and all of us went back together! haha! (=
all of us wenta find miss liang
and had a pretty long catching up session with miss liang!
took some photos as well!
shall upload them soon! =D

showed xinee around fairfield
she wanted to see our sky bridge so much
told her that the sky bridge actually resembles a grand piano
told her abt the piano keys and musical notes as well! haha
and she saw how lively FAIRFIELD is! =D haha!
im so proud of FAIRFIELD! =D
and im proud to be a FAIRSIAN! =D

and i had a few scary incidents too!
all thanks to chye aik and bryan fok
chye aik suddenly pulled my pony tail
pulling me like a dog at a rather high speed
so i'll fall if i dun move with him
but since he was moving pretty fast
i had problems moving with him coz of my injured tail bone
and it was so painful that i cried haha
but he din know abt my injury
so he was super super scared bleah!
then xf xinee huifang they all told him abt my tail bone
den he felt v bad haha
so after that hosea was helping us take a pic
we were at the cca block
while hosea was below
so we were posing for the photo
bryan fok tried doing a handstand
in the end he failed i guessed
and his legs hit my head
i got a BIG BIG shock!
it scared the hell out of me
that i almost fainted haha
and he accidentally kicjed yuliang as well lol
so yuliang started kicking bryan lol
it was really funny lah
though it freaked me out

and i wenta jurong east to have dinner with joelynn & huifang
mr kwa dropped us off at clementi
mr kwa is still as thick-skinned as ever lah
as crappy as ever! haha!
had so much fun talking craps with him
kept going against him bleah!
and i really missed 4F LOTS LOTS LOTS!!
im super tired now

i was really really HAPPY until just now =(
and i shall not talk about it either

It is wise to apply the oil of refined politeness
to the mechanisms of friendship.

-- Colette, The Pure and the Impure, 1932

Quarrel not at all.
No man resolved to make the most of himself
can spare time for personal contention.

-- Abraham Lincoln, in a letter to J. M. Cutts, October 26, 1863

Man is the artificer of his own happiness.

-- Henry David Thoreau, Journal, January 21, 1838

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

so many days since i last blogged
all because of the LONG days i've got
i wanted to blog last night
but i was really too tired to even on the com haha
and anyway i didn't go school today
im getting a MC later haha
but with a valid reason of course
i fell during the friendly with vjc last night
and injured my TAIL BONE
tail bone sounds interesting eh? haha
soo... back to TUESDAY!

TUESDAY 260307!

XINEE overslept! so i din go school with her
she told me that the birds' chirping woke her up -_-'
so she had a pretty exciting start that morning (=
& i had PC early in the morning at 9 am!
not very early though
because the sun was freaking BIG & BRIGHT that day!
3 rounds for warm up and did some rubbish things
and my whole body started to ache AGAIN
all because of the BAKA standing broad jump haha

& the gp tutor just pisses me off
he's such an ass man
i shall list down the things i've to do
for this freaking subject

1. Write a Reflection for Every Lesson

Either

3 things learnt in class +
2 Areas Of Concern +
1 Thing you can apply Immediately

OR

Craft a personal response (Minimum 4 paragraphs)

So I'll have to hand in a journal to this ass every friday
including a vocab list and any other things that
i would like him to read & see
gossip, trival, personal rambling, illustrations
and this is to be submitted every FRIDAY or otherwise stated

2. Current Addairs File

News articles from the straits times
or Time mag

Select 5 articles for filing
and the irritating things is that
we gotta email him on the article chosen for his approval
on whether it can be put into the file
and we are to email him by THURSDAYs every week!
then he'd choose 2 out of the 5 articles
that we'll write a review/commentray on
and these reviews/commentray are to be handed up on MONDAYs
can you see how many deadlines i have? basket!
i was so freaking pissed
and i was pissed the whole day =P

i calculated my graphic calculator with amanda after school
the calculator so SUPER HEAVY lah!
made my bag so super uber heavy =(
and i wenta QUEENSWAY with amanda & xinee
they went down to collect their converse shoes
and we met amanda's sis, michelle
i spotted michelle across the road at the road junction
amanda was so excited and she started
shouting across the road to her sister
but michelle couldnt recognise coz it was pretty faraway
and so amanda shouted:
MICHELLE! I'M YOUR SISTER!!
I PICKED UP 50 CENTS!!
-_-"
then she passed her sis the 50 cents
retarded! HAHA!
and i bought new contact lens!
this time i bought BioMedics Contact Lens
recommended by Joanne!
and im wearing it now
it's so much better! my eyes are not dry now! (=
so its 70 bucks for 7 months of contact lens haha
XINEE AMANDA & I bought a black adidas bottle together! =D
and i bought another orange thing too! haha!
so i spent quite alot that day
100 plus i think? heartache! ouch.

xinee did not get the color that she wanted for the shoes
but she dun dare to ask for change haha
because they paid deposit for orange and green
but in the end they changed to pink
so they dun dare to change again
besides that amanda threw away the receipt already
so both of them were hiding at some place
while i went back to the shop for a change
WITHOUT a receipt! i was v scared also lah =X
but the person was nice to let me change! (=
so when i went back to look for amanda & xinee
xinee so anxious abt whether i managed to change the color
" i didn't manage to change the color"
but i started laughing to myself HAHAHHA!
then i said i bluffed her one
she took the shoes from me
and went for a walk like a madwoman b4 coming back to us
she was so HAPPY lah!
before that she was super EMO-ed
after that she very HIGH le! haha! =D
amanda & i saw a BLACK ADIDAS BAG
which both of us fell in LOVE with! =D
it costs 60 bucks
but amanda gotta ask her mum whether she can buy first
if not we can buy together le! =D
i rushed home for for my mum's birthday then lol

HAPPY 42 nd BIRTHDAY! =D

Wednesday 280307

an accident-prone day
i went back home after school to shower
before going down to kallang for a friendly with vjc
was supposed to eat pizza hut with amanda xinee xf jiayi & richie
but i couldnt go coz of the friendly
anyway fairfield C Div was also having a match with nanyang!
went down to support them! (=
anyway they lost
heard from miss lee that they're out le =(
nvm girls! there's still next year! =D
so anyway we lost to vjc for the friendly
and i had a fall during the last quarter
and i experienced some pain on my butt
then i realised that i've injured my TAIL BONE
So pain lor! couldnt do many things
cannot do stretches bend down etc
and i had difficulties walking too
when i told yeeleen & miss choo abt my bone
then they looked at each other
that really scared the hell out of me
it's as if like its a VERY SERIOUS thing =(
so miss choo asked me to put ice on the tail bone
but when i got home
my bros told me that they ate the ice le -_-"
so i walked v v v slowly to macs to have dinner with connie
and i dunno what happened
and i actually got cut by paper
while i was opening my box of nuggets
see how accident-prone i am?
took bus 16 down to city hall with connie siyun & melly!
siyun & melly actually went shoppin at suntec
oh my it was so late already lor
so i reached home really really late
at around 9 plus like that =(
and i met jeslyn at boon lay!
she went down to changi airport to send a friend off!

because of my injury
i was having much difficulties moving around
i was like a snail -_-'

and TODAY! 290307!

i woke up as usual at 630 am
but i decided not to go school since it was still painful
and xinee called me at 703 am!
she actually missed her bus for me coz she thought that i overslept
i felt super touched and super bad! =(
she was so nice to even miss the bus to wait for me! (=
so i told her that im not going school today
so next time i gotta tell her if im not going school! (=
and news spread so fast that
amanda also knows abt it few mins later
amanda was super concerned. im touched girl! (=

hey. are you okay?! how come you can injure yourself?
is it serious? are you going to see doc? when you going to see?
want me see with you? what happened? during match right?

see how many question marks there are in one sms. gosh.
so i slept till 9 and started cleaning up the house
the house is real messy
i couldnt stand it at all
and i started reading my chemistry notes
coz until now i still dunno what they teaching
and i had a great sense of satisfaction
when i managed to do those moley moley questions
cause i really sucked at moley moley haha
and i wenta see a doc at around 4 plus
but the clinic was closed! wasted trip
and i ALMOST slip and fall AGAIN!
oh my oh my!
i seriuosly have no idea whats wrong with me
but i know that it's because of the wet ground due to the rain
phew. i dun wan to become like AYA in One Litre Of Tears
so i went down again at 6 am!
i wenta make sure that its a FEMALE doc! haha!
and i had to let her see my butt! =( so pai seh lah!
in the end i was given painkiller
MC for today. and excused from physical activities till next THURS!
but the sad thing is that
i still gotta make up for PC lessons after that
stupid JJC die die also cannot skip any PC lessons one
but this time its not as if like i purposely skip
its coz i really cannot have any physical activities lor

anyway i was on the phone with amanda just now
and she was SO SUPER FUNNY lah!
she called to ask whether i want to donate blood with her
cause she din manage to ask someone to donate blood with her
but the thing IS! i WANT to donate blood!
BUT i DUN DARE to donate blood =X
and throughout the call she kept complaining abt how scared she is
I VERY SCARED LATER I DONATE BLOOD ALREADY
THEN I NOT ENOUGH BLOOD UNTIL
THEY GOTTA GIVE BACK MY BLOOD TO ME AGAIN!
see how CUTE she is! =D HAHAHAHA
so throughout the 15 mins of call
i laughed like ive never laughed before! HAHAHA! =D

anyway i gotta go le! i've got school tmr!!

In the field of observation,
chance favors only the prepared mind.

-- Louis Pasteur, lecture 1854

Strive for excellence, not perfection.

-- H. Jackson Brown Jr., O Magazine, December 2003

Vigorous let us be in attaining our ends,
and mild in our method of attainment.

-- Lord Newborough, Motto

Monday, March 26, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

im so so so so so TIRED now!! =(
had netball training today
and i realised that its gonna be a hectic week!!
gonna have 4 days of netball out of the 7 days in 1 week
oh my gosh!!
so my programme for this week is:

monday is training
wednesday is friendly with
Victoria JC at KALLANG at 545 pm!
look at the location and time!!!!! on a weekday some more
save me help me
friday is training
saturday is a friendly with the seniors
lalalalala all the best to me
now that school has started oh my =(

and it started raining this morning when i just woke up!
so sad lah! it'd be better if it had rained while i was sleeping! (=
so i wenta school a lil later than usual
since we could go school later
just before 8 am can le haha
thats why its good that it rains in the morning! =P
and i took 99 instead of 185
because ive got no shelter to 185 bus stop haha

i think that my lecturer for today's physics sucks
he was simply talking to himself lor -_-'
i dun understand what he talking
luckily i've learnt those in sec sch on what he's teaching
civis lesson was pretty fun today
except that i kept kena sabo-ed by zheyuan and junjie to be rep
out of no where just called out my name
made me go in and out of the classroom SO MANY TIMES
basket in the end i was made the GP rep =(
then halfway i told mr goh that the gp notes v heavy
so he let me change with another guy
so im now the chemistry rep instead HAHA
he even asked what i got for chem -_-'
and asked whether i like chem
so i kept nodding my head and say YES YES YES!
at least i dun have to die die also gotta do gp homework le =P
and junjie's the CT rep lah!
thats the WOSRT i tell you
gotta clean the board and maintain cleaniness of classrooms etc
and he also gotta plan and give lesson on civis
so CAI JUN JIE will be our tutor once every week!
this is the results of sabo-ing people!
you got yourself sabo-ed! HAHAHA
so sometimes its not good to have ppl that u already knew in ur new class
you'll be sabo-ed -_-' im one good example haha

and i started becoming very emo after getting my timetable
its so saddening lah! =(
i end school at 3pm on average!
the earliest is wednesday! but it's a CCA day!
what the hell lah!
just because of the freaking project work
then now my timetable become like that! ASS!
so throughout the day i was really v v sian-ed
monday blues eh haha
and when i went for training
everyone also damn sian-ed lah
all so emo and moody and sad LOL
so we simply played games throughout the whole training
which is what i love the most! =P
just play play play & play!! haha! =D
and next was the serious stuff
the 15 names for the school team was announced
i already knew that they'd annouce coz siyun & joanne told me about it
it was damn serious lah!
they announced until they cried sighs
cause got some ppl trained v hard din get in
whereas got some just came in den in le
aiyoyoyo anyway please cheer up!
and soon the 15 gonna be reduced to 12
and i went for a 1.2km run with angela pearlyn nadia and connie! =D
stayed back for awhile and talked
please do cheer up people!!!! smile! =D

and the sad thing is that!
i have PC tmr!!! RRRAAAHHHH!!! =(
sucks argh!
and im glad that i din fall down today
especially when it was raining so heavily in the morning haha

When a miracle happens,
even if not to you,
its nature is to naturally expand.
You can almost feel the warmth on your face.

-- Hugh Elliott, Standing Room Only weblog, 06-02-04

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

I've just done some personality test
some drawing house test haha
i find most of them quite true except for some

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:

You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You are self-confident and happy with your life.

the part about me being a GIFTED ARTIST
is SO NOT TRUE lah! lol!
this personality test is pretty true
try it HERE! (=
im pretty happy with the house that i've drawn! =P
though its the same as what i used to draw when i was young =X

anyway i've nothing much to say about today
just that i was forced to wake up at 8 plus
in the morning to have breakfast
which pissed me off pretty alot
so i went back to sleep all the way the way to 12 noon =P
so my brother & i just spent the day cleaning the house -_-"
what a sad life eh? haha
and had dinner out with my family
my father was mad to order all dishes with CHILI!
ate until i stomachache! lol! but i still love CHILI! =D

i seriously got nothing to say except that
i found out that i really got a BLUE BLACK on my BUTT! =(
and i was so pissed with my father
cause he wants me go go back malaysia this saturday! !!!!
i planned to go out with the girlies this sat lor!!! sighsss
i have such a sad life
okay im just complaining
i LOVE my life! =D

Every instance of heartbreak
can teach us powerful lessons
about creating the kind of love we really want.

-- Martha Beck, O Magazine, February 2003

Make the most of yourself,
for that is all there is of you.

-- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

i had such a WONDERFUL day today!!! =D
because i had a fall!!
it was so INCREDIBLE & EXCITING! =D
and guess what?
i actually woke up at 9 plus to shower
and went out to study with XINEE AMANDA & XIANGFENG!
i cant believe it either hahaha
i first met up with xinee at the macs near my house
and i had macs breakfast!
it's like after so long! haha!
and amanda just left her house when i reached -_-'
before that she was telling us that she's ready
and that she's ready to leave house ANYTIME
amanda leong! HAHAHA!
and we moved to kfc in the afternoon cause xinee wants to eat
cause she wanted to have kfc for lunch!
xiangfeng joined us soon after! (=
xinee said that i look v strict with specs =X haha!
cause i rushed out of my house
and since its SO NEAR my house!
i couldnt be bothered to wear my contacts haha
anyway for the whole day
i only managed to read thru my 2 sets of geog notes
spent a pretty long time to read & understand
and i did my physics tutorial 1
super lousy lah
only managed to do 2 subjects =(

amnda left at like 3 plus 4
and the rest of us left at 4 plus 5
xinee & i decided to go walk around Jurong Point
since we were so sian after studying for the whole day
but we had lotsa things with us lah!
because of the fact that our house's nearby
so we brought MANY things with us!
i was hoping that my bro's still at the community club
so that i can pass him my things to bring home
but he wasnt
so i had to go back and put down my things
and while i was walking down some steps
i SLIPPED & FELL down a step/a few steps!!!!
oh mannn!! i didnt really know what exactly happen also
its just happened too FAST!
i was shocked and stayed down there
i hit somewhere above mt butt
i thought that i'd be paralysed HAHA
and in my mind i was worrying:
would i be able to stand again?
would i be able to play netball again?
i think i was too scared then
and thinking TOO MUCH!! HAHAHA!
xinee & xiangfeng got a shock too i guess haha
and it's so pai seh lah!
got a few people looking at me
some more it was right outside KFC
inside got so many people =X
so xinee & xiangfeng pulled me up! haha!
and while i was walking back to my house
i suddenly burst out laughing to myself =X
i thought that xinee & xiangfeng would think that im CRAZY
but to my surprise
they actually knew why i laugh!! =D
im so glad lah!
it shows how much they know me! =D
i was asking xiangfeng why she knew
then she told me its cause i always very SLOW one! -_-"
so on the way back to my house
i was laughing now & then like a retarded =X
and i was so excited to tell my brother about the fall
so i dropped everything i had
wore my contacts and off i wenta JP with xinee!

so we walked around and i spent quite alot today =(
i bought my mum's present le! =D
xinee & i saw many interesting earrings
she kept staring at one particular pair of earrings
trying to figure out how to wear it HAHA
i bought a very cute bookmark too! >_<
next was popular!!! =D
xinee was complaining that she regretted going there HAHA!
because she ended up buying many markers and pens! LOL!
i was first looking at some A level books
but im NOT gonna abuy any TB
perhaps some guidebooks and such
especially for my PHYSICS!!
the J2 netballers are telling me that
those taking physics are dying already =/
so i think i dun have to wait till next year to die in physics le
and i started looking for my "diary" later!
im so glad that i've got one more!
i feel so much more organised now! =D
took a pretty long time looking for the RIGHT "diary" haha!
and its so messy there lah!
all the things kept dropping! basket. -_-'
anyway i've got a RED book! thats if i remembered correctly =X
and i started looking for markers!!
i bought 2 only! PURPLE & ORANGE!
and xinee bought like dunno how many
RAINBOW colours! HAHAHA!
and while i was going home
i THOUGHT i lost my wallet lor!
so both xinyiS were searching frantically!! HAHAHA!
sorry for the false alarm XINEE! =P

and it was so exciting just now also
cause i was waiting for my dad to go sleep
so that i can go shower without getting scolding =X
because it was already 11 plus!
but i still havent showered!
i confirmed will get scolding
if he knows that i shower so late haha
and i felt so so super duper refreshed after showering!
and it was raining just now! =D
but it's just shower only lah!
stopped already! =(
i was expecting a heavy rain
with monkeys and gorillas dropping down from the sky lor!!!
it would be so nice to sleep when its raining at night!! =D
i hope that it'd start raining again! yay!!

anyway i had height & weight on friday lah!
starting they told me i 161 cm lah!
freaked me out!
in the end is the measuring thing got prob!
im still 163 cm!! yay!! =D
and ive gained weight! =(
i shall not say my weight =/ HAHA

and i had my FIRST netball training after SOOO LOOONNNNGG!
i love the JJ NETBALLERS!! =D
LOVES!! =D

I would not waste my life in friction
when it could be turned into momentum.

-- Frances Willard

I hear and I forget.
I see and I remember.
I do and I understand.

-- Confucius

Let us be grateful to people who make us happy:
They are the charming gardeners
who make our souls blossom.

- Marcel Proust

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

i cant believe i have such a LAME friend
to actually mms-ed me a pic of his MESSY room!
and when i was online he told me this:
my room is SO MESSY!

my problem ah?
am i your maid? -_-"

i'm just telling you -_-"
i shall take a picture and send you.
and guess what? he did it. -_-"

thanks ah mak wen yao -_-"
can u see how many of that freaking face i've used?
thats shows how lame YOU are! -_-"

and i just got called out to watch something on channel 8
saying that u looked like someone
not again!! i think my face too common le
dunno how many people tpld me someone look like me
or i look like someone le arrrgghhh!
and mak wen yao has just sent me another pic of his room!!
RRRAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay i shall not talk about that anymore
anyway today was a pretty good day as usual!
its's thursday! the week's ending soon!
and i've survived through! =D
anyway this morning xinee kept telling
me that she's not coming to school tmr
all the way from morning till just now in the evening
she unknowingly tempted to pon school tmr also
but i've decided NOT to pon school!
because i think if i start, it's not gonna stop =X
and what's more,i've got netball tmr!!
i told yeeleen that im going down le! haha!
since i've said it, im gonna do it! =D

today i played dai dee with aaron russell and yuliang
and i really sucked at it
i always dunno when to use the dai dee =(
and i tried learning how to play bridge
in the end russell and i still dun really know how to play
and we had maths lecture after that
i've got no idea what that woman's talking about
and she's wearing such a short mini skirt -_-'
physics lecture was alright! =)
a good beginning for physics! yay! =D
and project work!!!
i received the GCE AO Levels EXAM PAPER today!!!
i freaked out lah!!!!
it's the EXAM PAPER!!!!
reminds me of O Levels!
just finished O levels a few months ago
and im gonna start having exams again like that -_-"
and the format is so R & D lah!
the R & D that we did back in fairfield
and my batch was so suay that we had R & D for 2 years
what the hell lah
it started when i was in sec 2, together with the sec 3 then
then when i was in sec 3 we had again
but the sec 2s den dun have because they felt that
they are still not able to handle R & D in sec 2
so my batch's forever the guinea pig!
and amanda was so bored and lame to sms me this

eleventh bril your birthday

den i was like question mark ??? haha!
i thought that she was trying to be funny
because my birthday's not on the 11th -_-'
in the end she actually got mixed up -_-'
11th is elis's while 4th is mine LOL
that joker!

oh ya! it's forth! haha! how you wanna celebrate. i was
thinking about it.lo. cuz it's so boring.

nice one girl! now is only march lor!
im currently thinking abt what to do on my mum's birthday

i stayed in the canteen chatting with a few people
and i had so much fun speaking broken hokkien to sarah! =D
we were both laughing so loud until the other people looked at us =X
and i kept saying BAKA to whoever i see
because the meaning of BAKA is STUPID in japanese!
cause theres this IDP programme
and im interested in taking up JAPANESE!
especially after watching those jap animae and one litre of tears! haha!
and we the ex fairsian girls suddenly thought of requesting for a new course
we wanted to request for cooking!!!
then i wenta find yeeleen cause she's the teacher in charge
and she said cannot =( cause JJ got no kitchen -_-'
so for the interested directed programme IDP
i've decided to take up JAPANESE,MALAY or BUSINESS COMM.
HAHAHA! people may think that im crazy to take up malay
but thats because i wan to learn more languages!!! (=
and some more im a malaysian BUT i dun understand malay =(
as for business comm. ive got no reason
i just seem to be interested in business related things =P
and i heard from yeeleen that they gonna have french and korean next term!
its so damn cool lah! and we gonna get a cert after completing the course! =D
anyway i just hope that im able to sign up for japanese!
its first come first serve lor haha

so kim came down to JJ!
but in the end we left JJ and wenta JP
kim had lunch with esmonde and keng heng
while amanda xinee & i wenta walk around in JP!
and i realised that i got so many things to buy!
but i forgot to buy!
ended just walkin around without buying anything -_-'
i needa buy markers!!! for note-taking and highlighting etc
i needa get a notebook also! for "diary" purpose!
i feel so lost without a diary like what i used to have back in fairfield
where i'll write down the things that i have to do for the day
and im still looking for the bag!!!
anyway i saw another white nike bag with some red and blue!
it's pretty nice too!! but its white! i v scared of white!
later confirmed get dirty v easily one =(
and ive also been looking for shoes! haha!
seems like i got lotsa to buy! -_-"
and i've got no time going town to see the ripcurl/roxy wallets =(
and its been like such a LLLOOONNNNGG time since i last go town
because my girls outings always nv go town one
because we dun like town! HAHAHA!
im so gonna get a new wallet man!

and i forgot to say that
i saw a newspaper on a boy who died in a car accident
and this person happened to be my ex primary school mate
i thought i made a mistake when i saw the photo of him
den i saw the name and the photo of her mum
and i was quite sure about it le
i was really shocked to see that lah!
and according to the report
his family income is only 900
so he started working since sec school
and he even saved on the 45 cents bus fare
and cycled all the way to the east to get to his relative's house
see how filial he is?
he's working to lessen his family's burden
and his brother happens to be my brother's classmate
so this ex primary school mate of mine
died in a car accident while cycling to somebody's house
and he died on the spot =(
and by the way i read this last friday i think
den yesterday there was another report on it
so yeah
safety first!!
those who care about you will suffer the most if anything were to happen to us
to to everyone! please take goody care of yourself!
dun make other people worry about you! (=

and ive just gotten a sms from xinee
she told me that she's going school tmr!
cause her mum wants her to go! haha!
so see you tmr xinee! =D

My whole career can be summed up
with 'Ignorance is bliss.'
When you do not know better,
you do not really worry about failing.

-- Jeff Foxworthy

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

i think i needa see a doctor
i knew that i was VERY TIRED & SLEEPY
because i almost fell alseep while using the com
but when i finally got ready to sleep
i couldnt sleep at all!!!!!!
so i wenta read newspaper
and finally fell asleep at 11 plus near to 12
i was v sad and worried when i couldnt sleep =(
how stupid to be stressed over sleep eh? dumb!

and nowadays i feel damn dehydrated!
i dunno where i put my water bottle cannot find it
and i forgot to buy a water bottle yesterday at queensway!
i was telling xinee abt a pretty nice adidas 750ml black bottle
but then i was looking for the smaller one
but they dun have black one!
i have my reasons for getting black!
cause i always anyhow throw my bottle after drinking =X

and i had pc today!
and yuanhao! pc is physical conditioning lah! haha!
wah lau damn unfair lor
the batch before my pc didn't run at all!!!!
as for mine we ran 3 rounds for warm up
then another one is complete one round & 10 push ups in 3 mins
and thats 2 sets!
next was to support our whole body weight with our hands
it was quite alright lah
but because of the fact that i din exercise for so long
my whole body is aching already -_-'
and when i was having pc
i kept looking at the ground when running when i was near yeeleen
and when i asked whether she got see me after school
she said she didnt -_-' there were times when i was RIGHT INFRONT of HER!

anyway i was v worried after school
i was thinking abt how to go down to the netball court
because i v scared the j1s dun like me
because i went for netball at the start of this year
at first they thought that im j2 =X coz of the shirt i was wearing
in the end i SOOOO LOOOONNNGG nv go netball
didnt go for the camp also
den i even thought of quitting netball
den now the j2s kept asking me to join netball
i scared they find me v big shot =(
but during that period of time
i seriously needed to stop netball for awhile haha
oh wells everything's settled now
and i was v scared to meet yeeleen after school also!
den melisa talked to me and i felt better
and siyun's always there to support me also phew
i feel so blessed to have these seniors! (=
hey im calling them seniors already! HAHA!
so i wenta find yeeleen in the staffroom
luckily nv talk lah!
she just asked whether i wanna stay in netball
its okay if i dun wan and stuff
so i told her: "yes im joining." (=
then she asked me go for training -_-'
but i wasnt told that theres training!
so i told her i'll start going trainings this friday haha
so yeah (=

and i had lunch in the canteen with amanda xinee sarah and richie
richie was emo-ing the whole day lor!
and timothy came to jj today! lol!
most of the fairsian girls join interact club
while most of the fairsians guys joined hockey!
and they having training at 430 tmr! haha!

anyway i was on the phone with kim just now AGAIN!
she told me that she's already told yeeleen
that i staying in netball yesterday -_-"
and yeeleen told her that she'll just pretend nothing has happened
no wonder she din talk to me abt it today lah!
and theres gonna be sneakers youth!
im so excited about it!
maybe can get to play with my fairfield teammates again! =D
cant wait mannnn!!! =D =D =D =D
and kim's coming down to JJ tmr!!!
cant wait to see her!
din see her for quite long le! haha!

Real strength is not just a condition of one's muscle,
but a tenderness in one's spirit.

-- McCallister Dodds

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

i cant believe that i couldnt sleep just because of a half an hour nap
last night i couldnt sleep at all!
i was so wide awake that i started doing a lil bit of maths
but the usual me was just too lazy to try =X
so i read abit of newspaper before going to sleep
i was rolling here and there
and i think i only managed to sleep at 1 am -_-'
anyway had a long chat with kim on the phone last night
she's so poor thing
whole day only training like that no life one
i feel so sad for her
its like her trainings are on monday wednesday friday
330- 830 or 5- 930
its so no life! i pity you man
luckily its not like that in jj haha =p
but i still hope that u can handle all these craps! =D

my day was abit screwed up early this morning
i thought that i got pc thats why i wear my pe shirt
then i realised that pc is tmr! not today! -_-'
so i change out of my pe shirt and wore the love fiesta shirt
and i brought my maths notes for nothing
once again i thought that theres maths today
but in the end its tmr -_-' kiam pah!
and i think the pc v hiong lor!
heard that needa run 2 rounds for warm up den stretching
then run one round and complete 10 push ups in 3 mins
something like that lah i not v sure also haha
its like in one week you have to run at least 10 rounds all together )=

and in school it's like when i see netballers they'll sae join netball join netball
while i will also go around asking ppl join netball HAHAHA
and today i ponned my geog lecture
i didn't wan to actually
but because its the first lecture
they'll only intro the course the tutors etc
thats why i din go =X
so i was slacking in the canteen for 3 hours after the gp lecture haha
together with xiangfeng xinee and sometimes amanda
waited for amanda to finish her pc after our chem lecture
and we bussed down to queensway shopping centre
feels so weird when we went past fairfield
i really miss fairfield alot man haha
and we met joshua toh in the bus haha

so we started walking around looking for fbt shorts
in the end theres no more size M black straight cut lah!
and i was lookig for bag
saw a blue nike bag! its the type that i wan
but then the colour not v nice and realised that there's only one color
so sad lah! i wenta many shops all only got that freaking color =(
xinee and amanda saw the super bright orange and bright green converse shoes
at first they dun wan to buy coz not enough money
so i asked them to go ask how many pairs left first
cause got promotion confirmed will sell off fast
told them to get it before it's gone
since they like it so much
but they not enough money haha
so in the end they paid a 10 dollars deposit!
yeah so they'll be going down to queensway again! ahha!

so today! my ezlink card is student fare once again!
after like soooo longggg
i've wasted so much money on the stupid adult fare!
adult fare is so ex lah!
top up 10 bucks and used up within a few days -_-"
its so nice hearing the double beep rather that the single beep~! (=
missed the double beep! hahaha!
so i trained home with amanda (=
im so so so tired now!
i hope i can have a good sleep tonight
sometimes dunno for what reason
i'll end up not being able to sleep because i think & worry too much
sometimes i dun even know what im worried about -_-"
and i realised that i got eye bag le! )=
its always like that when school starts
i can feel some pressure already
dunno for what also
im beginning to worry about A levels
because i feel that i cannot handle it
i seriously think that im worrying too much haha

I know just how frustrating it can be
when you're tired and exhausted,
but you still want to draw something.

-- Ward Jenkins, Ward-O-Matic, 03-23-2006

Monday, March 19, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

my official first day of school in jj's pretty good (=
well i felt weird wearing the uniform in the morning
but i got used to it soon after (=
but wearing the uniform's really very hot lah!
the material of the top is so freaking thick
well i guess its the same for all JCs
so i shall not complain anymore haha (=

seems like im quite happy today haha!
i dunno why also bleah
and joanne says that i looked like factory worker -_-"
stupid uniform hahaha
she asked me to alter my skirt shorter
i personally felt that the skirt's very short for me le
anyway i felt very touched when joanne they all sae that they missed me
and that they knew abt it already
and yeeleen told them that she understands how i feel
because i've played since primary school
and this time i didn't join in with those fairfield girls
and they kept asking me to go down on wednesday
well im going down on wednesday haha
and so i talked to siyun after school
gosh the A div tournament's just one month away!
and they know the groupings already
they'll be meeting RJC, MI, SAJC and SJC
SJC as in serangoo i dunno how to spell =X
siyun told me that yeeleen's gonna talk to me!
well i expected it lah -_-'

and today i kinda managed to psycho 2 of my new classmates to join netball =X
i told u! theres something wrong with me
i kept asking ppl to join netball
but i myself's thinking abt quitting netball
if i join back netball now
i've got only one month to train myself!

anyway today i was rather hyper after school
keppt talking rubbish and laughing HAHAHA
and i was so guai to be listening during maths!
i even copied down the things lor! hahaha!
yes come on xinyi! (=
go into jj with a positive attitude
and enjoy my next 1.5 years of life!! =D

and these are the photos taken last tuesday!

i've no idea why she wanna wear a cap haha

she loves my brother. always wanting to take a pic with him -_-"

I LOVE AMANDA & XINYI! =D

the 3 of us! (=

somewhere in jjc. we came out halfway during a talk for a walk =X

she took it without telling me lol

and thats amanda & xinyi!

we are cool people! =P

well i dunno whats with this bleah!

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

so yeah school's starting tomorrow!
i dunno how i should feel about tmr
excited? nervous? happy? sad?
anyway there wun be lessons tmr i guess haha

so im wearing jj uniform tmr
and i shall stop complaining that the uniform's ugly =X
because i'll be the one wearing it tmr -_-"
so im hoping that tmr's gonna be a good day for me
im gonna speak to siyun yeah
yeah im gonna speak to her!
im pretty excited actually!
i got so many things to ask her! haha!

and i've finished watching 1 litre of tears
11 episodes in 3 days
not very good though
aiyo abit the disappointed
i can do better! lol! this is so lame
doing better at watching faster? -_-"

To love what you do and feel that it matters
- how could anything be more fun?

-- Katharine Graham

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

my day's pretty much the same
with me staring at the computer screen
watching one litre of tears on youtube
yeah appreciate life more
i've got nothing much to say

but this is to one person
stop speaking in that way!
you are so arrogant!
i dunno what's wrong with me in the past
i was so blind that i couldnt see it
but now its crystal clear!
i can see now! i can see everything! YOU SUCK!
you think you are good
you think you are great
MY ASS!
get outta my life you SUCKER! argh!

The other side of suffering
Ikeuchi Aya

Everyone feels pain
But surely, after suffering, satisfaction will arrive
Even with sports, studying or other ordeals
With life, it's like that for everyone
If we can beat the pain, on the other side
A rainbow of happiness awaits us
That will definitely become a treasure
Let's believe in that.

Step by step
Ikeuchi Aya

When my existance seems to disappear
I will look for the place
where i can do the best i can
From now on, I'll deliberate slowly
I won't be impatient
I won't be greedy
I won't give up
Because everyone takes things step by step.

When you encounter difficulties and contradictions,
do not try to break them,
but bend them with gentleness and time.

-- Saint Francis de Sales

Friday, March 16, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

One Litre Of Tears!

if i were a flower, then now i'd be the bud
i shall treasure the beginning of my youth
without any regrets

In the shore across the sadness
It's said that A smile is there
And when we arrive there
What will wait us there?
It's not for running away
It's to chase the dream
Should have gone to a trip
On that far summer day

If only i can see tomorrow
Then i will not breathe a sigh
Like a boat sailing against the stream
Now,you must go forward
If the rain clouds disappear
Shall the wet road shine
Only the darkness will tell me
The strong strong light
Strongly,go forward

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

im pissed when my entry is not saved
and something just happened to happen
i've finished blogging and the internet explorer suddenly closes
it was a long post lor basket
im starting to complain like hell now argh

i was saying that i had a pretty good day today
so i shall cut short everything now hmph
took bus down to beauty world with xiangfeng amanda
although i was late as usual
but today not so bad causeu everyone's late! =P
xiangfeng told us abt the show ONE LITRE OF TEARS
saying thats its very touching
and amanda was super surprised when she heard that xiangfeng cried -_-"
so amanda sae she's not gonna watch coz she scared she'll cry like hell haha
but i told her that i'll definitely watch it
because it'll make me appreciate my life more (=
and so amanda's already finished watchin 3 episodes tonight
and she kept bugging me to go watch also haha

so im gonna learn from my past mistakes
and save draft now and then while blogging -_-"
and we met many fairsians at the shop!
beauty world is super ULU!
i dun see any beauties also -_-
i was expecting to see some beauties (=
but to my disappointment...
anyway saw joaquina desmond yunxing velerie and esmonde
we are all going different JCs and stuff
valerie SAJC yunxing CJC desmond ACJC
while joaquina esmonde amanda xiangfeng & i are in JJC! haha!

so yeah took 174 together
amanda & xiangfeng wenta JJC while i wenta JP
but they couldnt buy the things coz kbox was closed
but kbox as in knowledge box its the bookshop haha
when i first heard abt it i tot its the sing song that kbox -_-"
yeah so i wenta JP to find my employee joel haha!

caught msn MESSENGER
well i meant the messenger =P haha
and he's such a loser! =X
he was scared lor!
although i was scared also =X
but im different case! im a girl! =P
oh yeah! oops i forgot that he's a GAY!
gosh how could i forget that?
so yeah anyway who got any gay friends please tell me
cause he's having problems finding a gay partner
please help to be his matchmaker! (=

yeah so we wenta popular to look at books!
wah many interesting books lor! (=
and started walking around like idiots
like what i always sae like idiots haha
the interesting part was to the pet shop!
i actually forgot wheres the pet shop =X
though i stay near JP
i seldom go there cause theres nothing to shop haha

i almost died when i enter the shop
i couldnt stand the smell of the pets' food
i find it stinky =P
but i got used to it eventually haha
the dogs are super cute! (=
but the cats so scary! i dun like cats!
they seem so evil and so full of revenge like that
their eyes especially! disgusting!
im sorry for saying that! especially to the cat-lovers! =P
and there were 2 dog that were moving around freely in the shop
one black one light brown
both are females cause i got eyes -_-"
the black one super disgusting!
it looks fierce and the eyes are red!
like sore eyes like that! yucks!
its as if watching a horror movie those bloodshot eyes gosh!
so im always running away from it when it comes near me -_-"
and the 2 female dogs like always together!
joel said that they are lesbian -_-'
hey i know you gay! but that doesnt mean that they les okay!?
so i told him that those 2 dogs are always together because
the black dog has just given birth
so the black dog's teaching the light brown dog abt childbirth
so the light brown dog is learning from the black dog!
dun ask me how i noe because i got eyes and i saw haha
the light brown dog's pregnant! she got such a big belly!
and i saw 2 other small black dogs too haha

yeah so went back home after that haha
and i just read liyana's blog! she's interested in joining netball!
i dunno why i always get v excited and happy when someone's interested in netball
because netball's really a very fun sports! =D
yeah so its back to the prob again -_-'
what should i do?
anyway i promised liyana that i'll help her when she needs! (=

We find no real satisfaction or happiness in life
without obstacles to conquer and goals to achieve.

-- Maxwell Maltz, Communication Bulletin for Managers & Supervisors, June 2004

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

i've talked to quite a few number of people regarding it
and i still havent come to a solution

to my dearest dear:
heyy.heyy.
after readin ur bloggie, i finally understandx why u'r doin all these.
iish okiex my dear.
i dun blame u at all.
so dunnid feel that bad and apologise for so muchie troublex caused okiex?
hmmx.. yeah. i noe jj team aint like the fairfield team which u spent 4yrx tgt, gel-ing, bondin and everythingy thatx called FUN and MEMORABLE. is imcomparable de. i noe. coz thatx how i felt too towardx my CTnetballTeam and jjTeam too. u'll find that ur sec.team is the best. coz i do find ct's the best. i do. but not all of them noex. jjTeam is made up of pple from different backgroundx. those who n-ter le either prefer or dun prefer it. i belong to dun reallie prefer de. coz i had ct, where i find the true frenship and wad i reallie call a team. but not every1 come from same team as i do. so gotta lower expectationx.
anihoo, the thingy is that.. ya. i understand u jj team aint ur sec.team.
the difference is just there.
cant be undone.

hmmx.. is true 4yrx of netball + anoder 1 and a half yrx is kinna sianx. watx more is alone. with new faces and stuff. is equivalent to startin all over again. is reallie a kinna feelin i dun quite like. yet still going thru.
hahax. dunno y i just did.
honestly, u're good. better than some of the players in the team now. wadx more A'div cumin up. thatx why we hope to see u with us. so.. im sorrie for pressing u liddat. dint noe that u're suffocating at the other end until i read ur bloggie. i'm reallie sorrie my dear..
hmmx.. can i let yeeLeen read ur bloggie?
she'x understandin de coach. :)
hmmx.. gal ahx, just to let u noe hohx, we havin selection trialx in term2 wk1 for the 2nd in-takerx. if u walk past the court and wanna play, dunnid shy. just come okiex? we welcome u. anitime. reallie do.
cheer'up okiex my dear?prefer the chatty, blabby u. c:must takeCareCare okiex?anithingy can still find me de.no worriex! C=
`yunn

she had been through it too
if she can do it,why can't i?
she went through what im going through now
who am i to complain now?

Hey Xinyi,

Finally I've got some time to reply ur mail that u sent me pretty long time ago. It's the Spring Break now n I've got 1 whole week of hols. Since I'm not going anywhere, I have pretty much a lot of time to neaten the loose ends of things and reflection (if I dun end up procrastinating...). So about 7 weeks of school here have passed since I started and I'm feeling pretty comfy living here (other than the ocassional craziness that happen). I have also come to realize the human nature of never "HAVING ENOUGH" or being satisfied with their present condition. Take me as an example, when I was in Singapore, I was dying to come here (US) but when I'm here (in my current school, ASU), I'm so darn eager to move somewhere else, in another state. Oh wells, I guess I just have to figure out what I want and plan my life properly if I want to achieve something.

I know that u r confused right now and u r unhappy about netball stuff. What I can say is that slow down, figure out a solution, and approach the person to deal the problem. After all u re the one living your life and no one can control it but bearing in mind that how u deliver the message (about quitting netball) to the person affects the results. There must be a solution to everything, it's just a matter of finding the right one. We all have problems but well, life still have to go on. We can't just stumble down because of a problem hindering our way. Let's fight our problems together and get what we want in life! Let me leave u with an email that I got form my mom that i found so inspiring:

SUCCESS

The Road to Success is not straight.

There is a curve called Failure
A loop called Confusion
Speed Bumps called Friends
Red Lights called Enemies
Caution Lights called Family
You will have Flats called Jobs

But, if you have a spare called Determination
An Engine called Perseverance
Insurance called Faith
A driver called Jesus

You will make it to a place called SUCCESS!

Stefan

i'm afraid that i'll regret letting go of netball
the part about never "having enough"

hey girl i just read ur blog..wow seems u really have lotsa emotions bottled up yea?

come on cheer up its normal for every1 2 come across to this phrase in their life..
however its how they CHOOSE to react to this situations
which will eventually result in what they become later in life.
never ever have the impression that u dun have control over ur life..
by not choosing 2 go for training its already a choice miss hoo:)
and girl..so what if we are sports attached?
its not whether we have a choice or not..
its how we view ourselves as...
we maynot be able 2 choose our courses 1st hand ..
but look at u...u studied hard and u improved by alot...
isnt dat having control of ur life?
come on man...hold ur head high...
sports attached 2 me means
we're talented in dat sport and the school wants our talent

ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE

1 more thing...WHO EVER SAID U WERE USELESS???!!
has any of ur frens said dat 2 u?seriously?
if they have then perhaps u might b...
BUT...WHO IS CALLING WHO USELSES NOW?
come on xinyi...u've got 2 b confident of urself..
ur a leader u noe...
how will pp following u look up 2 u like dat..ur lil bros..ur frens...

dear xinyi...i;m sure ur frens have confidence in u and so do i...
now all that matters is that whether u have confidence in urself...
hold ur head up high dear vice capt

loook forward 2 seeing u back....
so long never tok 2 u alr leh..
i really enjoy ur company gangster!

come on!:)life is like a half filled glass...
it depends on how u see it be..
half full?or half empty?its all up 2 u

Joel Tan

i have control over my life
im not useless
always look on the birght side of life
half full glass
have confidence

actually my advise would be
"its your life do what you want, dont listen to others"
so by right u can not listen to what im going to say

tell u story
ive got a friend right, soccer one
he went into SA thru soccer for the first 3 months
after that he wanted to go to AC but he felt bad pangsehing his team in SA
but the thing was he realised, it is his life and not the soccer team in SA running his own life

even though he is like pangsehing them, that might affect his future
soccer in SA is only 2 years
but ur life is like until 80 like that
60 more years to go
so u decide
dont go back into netball cos u feel that u dui bu qi your coach

Junlong

it's my life
do what i want
and not listen to others

lemme ask
do you really want to train and play for jjc?
if u're going to play for jjc
you have to give all that u've got
if not there's no point going
you go there to do ur best

on the other hand
if you really want to play netball. for jc.
go ahead and do ur best without neglecting ur studies
in which requires alot of effort. and discipline.
jc alone requires alot of discipline. with netball, you need to put in alot.
it'l definitely push your limits.

Wen Yao

studies. netball.
the A div tournament starts so late
and A levels is at the end of the year
both are so close. how?
it's university after jc. i dun wish to risk it.

You've studied for so long,Don't waste your 1.5 years

Mr Kwa

before that i was telling mr kwa about it
that yeeleen would want me to continue
cause i've already been playing since primary school
she told us once during the netball farewell that
it would be a waste for us to give up on netball
and when mr kwa replied with
You've studied for so many years,don't waste your 1.5 years
i JUMPED up
i didn't even realise THAT until then
gosh

i still dunno what to do yet )=
been thinking and thinking
and im still thinking
anyway thanks for the emails
much appreciated
and the advice too
thanks alot! (=

The greatest conflicts are not between two people
but between one person and himself.

-- Garth Brooks, Country Music

Life became so meaningful with you around.

okay so what shall i say today?
well i really dunno what to do now
i dunno what to tell my coach
hey yeeleen i wan to drop netball
or hey yeeleen i dun wan to play netball anymore
or hey yeeleen i want to try out some new ccas
or hey yeeleen i dun think im fit to play netball anymore
okay seriously i dunno what to say or what to do
i mean yes i LOVE netball!
but i just dun like trainings
so sian of trainings
and i see no point of me playing in jj netball
it doesnt make any difference
it's not like 4 years ago
where we went to fairfield as a group
but now we've all split up it's so diffderent
i dun like it
i know you might tell me to adapt to it
but let me repeat i DUN like it
it's not that i dun like the people in jj netball
they are nice people really v v nice people
but i ponned that 3 weeks of school not for no reasons
it's because i dun wan to owe them something
i dun wan to be able to go jj for first 3 months just coz of netball
i wouldn't even mind or complain if they've canceled out my name
and for now
i want to be given a CHOICE
i dun wan it to be 4 years ago
whereby i got into fairfield
and im in netball straightaway
not even given a choice even when im SUPPOSED to have a CHOICE!
i went into fairfield myself with my own score
i din use netball to appeal nor gotten any help
and it's the same for this time
i went into jj with my results
and once again without a choice
it just kinda makes me feel that i've no say in my life
it's like... it's my life... but sometimes it doesnt seem to be my life

okay enough of that
suddenly just exploded like that
i've been troubled by that for 2 days already
running away from the problem too
not replying siyun & yeeleen's sms-es
im sorry i really dunno what to do i just need some time
or even more time cause i still dun really know what to do
im useless im so useless
i dun even know what i wan to do in my life
i need a compass in my body to find my direction in life
YES A DIRECTION IN LIFE!
positive! affirmative!

well so today i din go to the chapelthon
amanda came my house
supposed to settle some things and get ready for the chapelthon
nilawan not going den sheila amanda and i also like quite sian to go also
so decided not going and we din go im sorry joelynn
so yeah some catching up session with amanda leong haha
and she took a video of me fighting with my brother -_-"
yeah we were really fighting with some weapon as well LOL

and the songs that im listening to now makes me feel even worst
so moody so emotional
i shall stop here for today

im useless =(

NO im NOT!

I love life
Yeah, I'm sad, but at the same time,
I'm really happy that something
could make me feel that sad.
It's like...It makes me feel alive, you know.
It makes me feel human.
The only way I could feel this sad now is
if I felt something really good before.
So I have to take the bad with the good.
So I guess what I'm feeling is like a beautiful sadness.

-Trey Parker and Matt Stone, South Park, Raisins, 2003

Monday, March 12, 2007

Life became so meaningful with you around.

LAST CHRISTMAS!

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special (X2)

Once bitten and twice shy I keep my distance,
but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby, do you recognize me?
Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me
Happy Christmas

wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you",
I meant it Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now, I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special (X2)

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you, and your soul of ice
I thought you were someone to rely on Me,
I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A friend to discover with a fire in her heart
A man under cover but you tore me apart
Now I've found a real love,
you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special (X2)

LAST CHRISTMAS is a VERY VERY NICE song!
dun care sang by who also v nice
i realised got many people sing this song
anyway i heard from BoA!
and there's also backstreet boys ashley tisdale hillary duff cheetah girls etc
soooo maaannnnnyyy lahhhh -_-"

well i was supposed to go jj to appeal & check out my class today
but i didn't
i overslept like helll
until xinee called my house
i bet she got my number from amanda
my hp was totally flat when i woke up this morning
i was listening to some music last night =X
thats why xinee couldnt even call me haha

so i didnt go but asked amanda to check for me
im in s24 while yuliang's in s23
basket we not in the same class
and cedric same class as yuliang but he appealed successfully to AC le
ian and winner in the same class but winner confirmed not staying in JJ
zhangfan and yongtao both same class goshh the 2 jokers haha
and i just got news that ESMONDE TAN has appealed into JJ successfully
i wonder if he got use choir to get in hopefully not haha
cause he doesnt wan to be gay for another 2 years! LOL!

and what's gonna happen tmr?
chapelthon at 630 pm!
and gotta have dinner with the girlies at 430 pm!
this could be our last outing until dunno when's the next =(

and i finished the part 1 of full metal panic!
gosh i cant believe it also haha
i started watching the 2nd episode last night
until today! and im done with it! =D
it's nice! shall start with the 2nd one soon! haha! (=

Be more splendid, more extraordinary.
Use every moment to fill yourself up.

-Oprah Winfrey

I dream, therefore I become.

-- Cheryl Renée Grossman