I realised that i've been complaining so much about my life that I thought I should put an end to it hahah! It's so irritating to see someone who keeps on complaining and complaining. Because things will be so much better as long as you look at it in another perspective (: Yeah so that's what Im gonna do (:
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
I thought that today's a school day :/ I went to school early in the morning for the maths extra lesson on complex number and had the nanyang concept test for physics. My physics concepts are thrash, I wonder what i've been doing for the past 1.5 years during physics :/ I still had like 30 questions undone when I was left with 15 minutes and so I tikam all the way!! & if I were to pass the concept test, it only meant one thing, lady luck's smiling at me (: I regretted signing up for the physics concept test, I went in with nothing and came out with nothing omg :/
I had lunch and had yet another concept test for chemistry. But it's better this time round, at least I know how to do the questions (: My chemistry concepts are somewhere there (:I felt good at the start but started feeling sleeping near the middle :/ What an unearthly hour to have test huh? :/
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
Prelims are coming and I heard that we are 95 days away from A levels :/ My heart's like beating so fast nowadays that i'm pretty worried that it'll over exert and just break down :/ I hate stress :( Shoo shoo and go away from me :(
I think i'm such an ass because I'm always in my own world when people are talking to me :( I really cant stand myself but I'll try my best to change :/ & I dunno why, I just felt like i'm getting more and more emotional nowadays, most probably cause of the increased stress I guess? :/ Things are so different now :/
Sometimes I really wonder if I have split personality, it's like i show different sides when I'm with different people. It's like many people will think that I'm a very happy and always very high person, but sometimes I am just not. I dunno, like wanna keep that happy image kinda thing, and there's no point telling them whats wrong because I want to bring them happiness and not make them worry/add on to their burdens. I mean like, you'd rather see a happy person then someone who's depressed right?
& I feel damn freaking hell useless when I'm not there for you :( I should have approached you :( I saw you and sensed that something's wrong, but why didnt I approach you?! Im so angry and disappointed with myself :( I'm sorry :( You cheer up kay? (: I'll be there for you (:
it's time for changes
Monday, July 21, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
BFF! :D
I had lots of laughs today with Amanda and CJJ after school today! (: we talked about lots of rubbish while waiting to get out of the school at one and today's weather's so cold! :// & while walking to the bus stop, I saw this i-dunno-what-the-hell-you-call-that-but-its-some-advertisement-poster-thingy of the new movie Black Knight that you find at the bus stop. I saw the names of two actors in that movie that caught my attention, one's FREEMAN and the other's OLDMAN & i was laughing like some ass! It's as if like that movie's a comedy :P Well I dunno if you agree with me, but I found it damn funny. & dear Amanda made me screamed at the top of my lungs at the bus stop that freaked the hell out of herself, myself and CJJ :O -_-""" I didn't expect that reaction when Amanda's trying to scare me :/ & I lost my voice for nearly 20 minutes after that :/
We wanted to have subway for lunch but finally decided on Pizza Hut because subway didn't have meatballs. & we were crapping lots of rubbish and was talking abit about the past us and how we became the person that we are now (: Then there's this funny part about curly hair.
There's this girl, whom I won't name who, said this:
Your hair(the curly hair on your head) looks like pubic hair & CJJ's coach once said this(regarding curly hair again):
Are you wearing underwear on your head?
woooo I like Pizza Hut (: 4 other class guys were sitting at the table next to us too (: We walked around JP after eating cause we were way too full and finally went to Macs to do some work (: But all 3 of us kinda dozed off instead :/ Maybe they added some sleeping pills in our spag :P hahaha! CJJ went off at around 4 plus to give tuition while Amanda & I stayed on till 5 plus (:
& these are the photos taken last week when I was out with Amanda! (:
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
I've been so lazy to blog nowadays :/ LAZY is the word -_-" The 3 hours of maths paper on friday's ZZZzzzzZZZZ!! I didn't sleep, but the 3 hours paper made my head gong gong HAHAH! I've nothing much to say, except to ask myself to study harder!
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SHEILA LOH! :D
Hope you like the presents that Amanda & I had bought! :D
Monday, July 14, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
I guess I'm just being over sensitive, like really really too overly sensitive alr. & life's getting abit funny. I smile and laugh infront of people, but somehow, sometimes, something's bothering me deep inside, that makes my heart ache when I think about it. Like today, when I re-read a particular message, my heart just dropped :( I guess I'm just someone that people can't depend on :/ It's like I've failed to be people's support/source of encouragement when they need me, or even when they just need someone to be there for them. I've disappointed people repeatedly in all aspects. Please keep a distance away from me lest I hurt you again.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
sunshine after rain (:
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
Things are just not going well for me in every way and I don't know what to do :/ I only know that I can't screw up this A levels like how I screwed it up for O levels :( I'm sorry that I've disappointed you people in any way. I know that I've disappointed many people. countless. I know that. I'm very very sorry about it, though this word just can't make up for what I've done/have not done. I'm sorry for being so passive :/
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
Caught destination truth just now but it wasnt that fantastic compared to last week's about ghost! WOOO I'm so in love with things about this unexplainable ghost and spirit things though Im actually quite afraid of them :/ I believe that they are all around us, most probably just in a different dimension ;) & my heart's pumping faster as I'm typing this ohmygoodness! :/
& anyway I realised I have maths phobia now :/ It's like my heart will pump faster whenever I'm in maths tutorial or lecture when I dun get why things become like that! Then I will start talking to myself and become insane, doing stupid and weird things that scared the hell out of jeslyn and cjj! :X UHOH!!!!!!
& I agree so much with what amanda said about the weather nowadays. It's indeed peculiar that we have so many days of rain in such a short span of one week, what's more it's thunderstorms, unlike showers which are more acceptable in the month of July. Mother Earth's malfunctioning and going haywire now, all because of US.
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
I had a long long day, and I went for a short short run with Jeslyn and Junjie after school, which was about 4 plus (: It's nice running again and the netballers were having training as well (: Yeeleen and Miss Choo asked me to join them for circuit training if I really want to exercise. But I guess I'll be lying on the floor motionless after that HAHAHA! My fitness's damn sucky now! :/ We did some sit ups, well actually quite alot of sit ups :/ Until I was kinda injured somehow :((((( But all in all! Its great getting to exercise again! :D :D
& I'm happy that I passed my GP! It came by surprise cause I thought that I screwed up my paper 1 really badly cause I was lost halfway while writing. So much for the live with or without -_-" & nicey AMANDA threw an ice into my shirt when I saw her today! I'm so gonna throw an iceberg into your shirt HAHA -_-""!!
highlight of tomorrow---> Temperature taking and 2 hours maths lecture! :/
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
Caught 10 Promises to My Dog today and I must say that it's a really nice and touching movie although I'm not really a dog lover. But I do have the urge a get a dog after watching it hahah! Because the dog will ALWAYS be there for you (: I merely teared but the person beside me's crying omg! :/ Anyway I strongly recommend you guys to catch that movie, especially for Jeslyn & Wen Yao! ;) & in fact everyone should try to catch it! ;)
Well you know, we always understand that we must and should treasure every moment spent with our loved ones, but the sad thing is we seldom do it. We tend to neglect and take everything for granted when we get too used to having something/somebody, and I really find it very saddening because that applies to me no matter how much I keep reminding myself to treasure everything that I have. Its always until we lose something then we start to regret; that I should have done this and shouldnt have done that etc. Humans are sickening creatures that never learn from their mistakes -_-"(okay thats over-generalisation :///) Like so yucky argh!
I think there's something wrong with my ears -_-" I kept missing out what somebody JUST said to me, i mean like really JUST only! & that irritated quite a few people :( I'm really sorry about it, but I really didn't mean to :( :( oh wells I have a long day tomorrow, and Im alr very tired now :/ I shall have an early night haha! & i will see how early is my early night -_-"
Monday, July 07, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
HAPPY YOUTH DAY!
Do you feel like a youth? I don't cause I'm in a no-life stage now :/ But that's life for now, and I believe that it will only get better (: I believe in that. Do you? (:
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
I took a freaking hell long time uploading the photos and the videos WOAH! A MUST-WATCh video's the "HEART MAKING IN THE AIR"!!!!! :D :D :D :D It takes time, but still! WATCH IT! :D Your heart'd melt if you were there to see it! :D NDP NE SHOW's FANTASTIC, but only for some parts HAHA! I love the planes, the militray band and the fireworks :D :D :D & I think the funpack's so yucky, there's nothing interesting inside aand so lil things also haha!
I was so worried that it'd rained when I woke up as it was like raining EVERYWHERE! But was glad that the weather's fine during the NE show (: There's some breeze here and there too (: & I'm in love with fireworks! :D :D :D There's really nothing much for me to say, just enjoy the photos and videos! I still have a few videos of those planes, which are damn long that I decided not to upload them haha! :P
Had carls junior for dinner and night studied at pioneer mall (: I enjoyed myself (: (:
SKY LOVE! :D
look at this pretty heart! :D
I took this! :D
I think this photo is damn cool! :D everything's black and white except for RED!
I love the military band! the one playing the drum's so funny! :D
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
Today's 2 hours of maths lecture has been productive cause I prepared abit for it, since I bothered to go and do some questions on the techniques of differentiation and integration (: & my brain was once again drained after that mere 2 hours of maths. I have lousy brain :/ But on the other hand, I'm happy that I'm doing physics tutorial and I actually am able to do the tutorial (: I just thought that that's really encouraging (: If only Mr Kwok's also my physics tutor last year :/ But it's okay! late than never! :D I'll work harder! I shall give more attention to my maths and physics now! GOSH!
Weekend's coming! There's Fairfield Funfair and NDP NE show on saturday! WOOHOO! I'm still considering whether to go for the funfair :/ Thanks Yuan Hao for giving me the free ticket to the NDP NE show! hahaha! Someone's in the marching contigent huh?(:
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Life became so meaningful with you around.
My brain's drained today :/ Not as if like I use my brain alot, just that i used my brain for a lil longer than usual HAHA! We were like fooling around during the first half of the nuclear physics lecture, either acting retarded or sleeping like a log :/ But we started getting serious during the second half (: But I was still having sucha a hard time understanding :/ Physics is just NOT for me, and im very sad about it :( & I think AMANDA pon-ed the physics lecture cause I din see her around! WHERE DID YOU GO MISS LEONG! (:
Next was another 2 hours of maths and my differentiation and intergration's really SHITTY to the max now! :( I need to practise! There seems to be so much work waiting for me! :/ I'm feeling the pressure now :( Please save me!!!
BFF! :D
